It's time to take care of matters of the heart🤍!

My personal WHY that brought me to my heart's path (read more in "my healing story")

As a child of immigrants, I was thrown in at the deep end linguistically, with a fearful mother, years of experience of violence in school trough a nun & strict russian education, I had to build up a protective armor through constant tension. 

My inner drive to always have to prove myself more than others led to a strong sense of duty and I defined myself strongly through performance and my job. I learned to push myself beyond my limits of body & mind and to believe without hard work there was no success, no recognition and no love.

As adult, after years of chronic stress & time pressure in sales as a bank clerk, insurance claim manager and Construction financing Consultant in a large mass corporation, many life changes, adapting to my partners life because of not knowing my own needs & values, not trusting my inner voice enough, ending up as a empathetic people pleaser, 2018 a burnout stopped me, which culminated after a skiing accident and a massive twisting maneuver on my cervical spine by a therapist. 

I was so weakened that intracellular Epstein-Barr virus (herpes family) reactivation occurred, which ultimately led to the post-virus diagnosis of the chronic pain disorder fibromyalgia & a chronic fatigue syndrom (CFS). 

I suddenly couldn't feel my body anymore; like I was separate from him & my ability to feel. I lost my libido, was afried of dying, only felt burning pain throughout my whole body & started looking for answers.

So over 7 years I fought my way back from nerve pain & exhaustion to self-efficacy, observed that I still find myself in some relationships that did not feel emotionally safe & available to me. 

So in april 2022 I decided finally to break myself free and start to live my life more conscious & slower in the future, because I knew that was the only change to become sustainably healthy.

I quitt my job after 18 years in bank- & insurance consulting (sales), took me-time for healing & traveled 1,5 years to Sri Lanka, Thailand & Bali (Ubud).

On the way I was able to learn a lot about myself, my needs, my boundaries, basic trust in life, selflove, about circumstances for healing, healthy lifestyle, relaxation, recovery and recognized my sensitivity as a gift. 

I became a conscious YIN-yoga & meditation-yoga teacher to integreate more depth & gentleness within myself, relaxation expert and consultant for high sensitivity & Ayurveda.

I just love putting my body & mind into a meditative healing state & to share my experiences to inspire and help others.

Trough starting latin dance in 2022 & especially sensual brazilian zouk dancing in 2023 a whole new world of deepness starts to open up for me. I learned to give up the control of my mind, to fully surrender trough dance into my body, learn how to move my body with less tension/afford as nessesary to fully relax my muscles & be present in that moment. 

Zouk dancing was the last missed piece of my healing journey to express my inner truth & liberate my body from tension trough meditating in movement.

I came to understand how profoundly our experiences, traumas, and conditioning shape the way we live and respond to the world. I realized that creating lasting change requires not just insight, but the courage to embody new behaviors and forge new inner pathways. Most importantly, I discovered the powerful influence of the mind-body connection on our entire being and began to make profound progress through evidence-based pain reprocessing (PRT) and brain training methods from neuroscience. It helped me change my respond to chronic symptoms so that my brain interpreted the pain in a new and safer way, which enabled me to break the pain-fear-cycle.

That's why today I encourage particularly sensitive people to find their own path (to healing), drop old conditions and accompany them as a guide to find the way back to their body wisdom, transform tension to relaxation trough basic trust, understand emotions and sensations as healing body language & acknowlege their sensitivity as a strength.